I spend a lot of my time and energy on creating content. Whether it’s writing blog posts, editing videos and photos, connecting on social media or looking for the right place for a shooting. I learned that creativity helps me being present and feel meaningful. In the past, I wondered if I could really have an impact. Now, to have an impact and feeling meaningful are sensitive terms. Pronounce it out loud and people will think that you don’t appreciate having a healthy child and an amazing husband. That’s not that at all.
I am talking about following my inner intuition and doing things for myself, not for other people. As women and mothers, we tend to forget about ourselves. We take care of others, we are soft and gentle. We put others first. And as amazing as it is, we also need to do things only for ourselves. Being it going for a walk, having a massage, reading a book, educating ourselves, exercising, learning skills that others may not find useful or going on a spiritual retreat.
I love the process of doing things, I love creating. And I am lucky that I work for an organization that is trying to make the world a better place. I have been blogging for the last 5 years and kept thinking that I should leave my job and make blogging my full-time job. I looked at Instagrammers who started two years ago and now have over 1 million followers and travel the world. I wanted to do the same.
The more I wished for that to happen, nothing did. A few months back, one of my friends mentioned that we keep making plans for ourselves but the Universe (or God, should you prefer) has His own plans. We may want to be this or that, do this or that, move away or stay where we are, but if it’s not in His plans, it will happen. And maybe:
- Those people that I see on social media are not as happy in a real life,
- I am not supposed to be doing this full-time,
- The Universe has something else in mind for me.
- I am supposed to stay where I am and have an impact right here right now.
And let’s be honest, accepting this is super hard. It’s easier to leave when we feel uncomfortable instead of sitting still and going through it.
But the moment I stopped pushing, things started changing. Isn’t it funny? I also noticed that I stopped feeling torn. When I am at work, I am there 100%, I don’t wish to be video maker or a blogger. On the weekends or when I am at an event, I relax and enjoy being creative.
I do feel like I am making an impact and who am I to judge if it’s big or small?
If you think you’re too small to have an impact, try to go to bed with a mosquito in the room.
– Annita Roddick