PHOTOS by Alex.
“The journey is my home.” (Muriel Rukeyser)
This quote made me think of a speech that I heard the other day. Gabi Bernstein was sharing her experience in trying to get what she wanted instead of learning to lean in and listen to “The Universe”.
In 2017, I spent most of my time feeling out of place. I thought that the moment will come, that I will finally be able to quit my job and make a living from blogging. I wanted it to happen so bad. It did not. There was a huge disparity between what I wanted and the message I was getting. I did not want to listen, tried to push my way, and nothing happened.
The message that I kept receiving was: “Trust the process.”
I heard it but was not ready to accept it. I thought I knew better and felt unhappy and disappointed when things did not go my way. When I saw Gabi’s talk, I burst in tears. She was there. She tried to do the same and it did not work either. It is so hard to let go and start trusting the process. You have to accept that it might take more time than you expected. That you will have to climb up another mountain before you “get there”. And while I was unhappy I did not enjoy the opportunities 2017 offered. And there were plenty. I did not realize how lucky and blessed I was already. I just saw my goal and howto get there but as Muriel Rukeyser says: “The journey is my home.” In other words, enjoy the moment. Enjoy what is right in front of you and accept the journey. No matter how long it takes to reach your goal, what matters is the journey. How we grow and blossom along the way.
Last year I dreamed of recording video interviews with inspiring people. I thought I needed the best equipment, lights and a crew. The other day I realized that I did not need all that. I took my camcorder and recorded my first video interview. It is the first step to materialize my vision. I can see what I want to do so instead of waiting for the big bang, I will just start from the bottom. Sorry, Drake. :-))
“Just trust the process.” That is my motto for 2018. I remind myself of that when I start to think that things go slow and I should start pushing my way through.